Chapter 59: A Monologue of a Youngster in front of a Black Dragon

This was the highest life form out of all three thousand worlds. This was the coldest existence in this world. Its aura or pressure was unspeakable – aside from great xiuxingists who were out of this world, how could fragile humans stand before this giant black dragon?

Even though Chen Chang Sheng had a strong mind, he still couldn’t stand this pressure. He tightly closed up his mouth to prevent the sound of his teeth bumping to come out, yet he could not stop his body from trembling as if every single bone was crying.

Pa! He did not kneel in front of the black dragon, but he could not stand up either. He fell on the cold and hard ground. He felt absent-minded. He did not think about pain, but kept repeating few sentences in his heart.

“The legend is real!”

“There’s a dragon inside the royal palace!”

“A noblest Frost Dragon!”

Before he opened up that heavy door, he had thought of many possibilities.

He had thought that the being behind the door was the old guest who was at saint stage and had xiuxing for over a hundred years in the royal palace mentioned by Luo Luo. It could also be the central battle array of the royal palace, or even be the corpse of a dragon. He could never imagine that…

There’s an alive dragon behind the door!

After the ancient past, people could barely find any traces of dragons on the continent. These noble but strong creatures were gradually becoming holy beings that only existed in books. No one had seen it. Chen Chang Sheng had tried to picture a dragon many times. He wanted to see it.

Tonight he finally saw it, but now he wished he never did.

The dragon was floating in air, looking down at him.

The lights emitted from the thousands of Nightly Pearls at the roof were absorbed by his black scales. The black dragon was as scary as a living abyss, but what really caused fear was its pair of eyes. The eyes were filled with coldness and brutality.

Chen Chang Sheng understood the meaning of its look. It was that of a human child looking at ants under the tree.

They were extraordinarily pure, cold and violent for no known reason or explanation.

Kids could stare at ants for half an hour and then stepped on all of them to death.

This was the attitude of high level creatures to subordinates.

Chen Chang Sheng eventually understood the sentences Mo Yu said before she left.

Yes, no one could leave from the Tong Palace because the living exit of Tong Gong was under the cold pond.

The cold pond was the real dragon pond. A black dragon lived here and any human who met it would meet death.

Yet Mo Yu never thought that he actually had the bravery or stupidity to walk in front of the black dragon.

The frost on Chen Chang Sheng’s eyelashes fell down like the snow on the a Chimonanthus (some plant) blown off by wind.

A tiny wind was blown up in the underground dimension.

The black dragon was preparing to breathe.

Chen Chang Sheng knew that he would die at the next moment.

The moment he pushed the door, he prepared many plans. Even if he really met the old guest who was at saint stage, he did not think he would definitely die because he believed that as long as he could communicate, then he could change his fate.

But behind the door was a black dragon.

In legends, the dragon was noble, strong but never kind.

Dragon wouldn’t communicate with humans. They disdained to communicate with humans or at least they felt that it was shameful to communicate with a common human like him.

To this, he didn’t have any preparation.

He had prepared for death for many years but when death truly came, he realized that he wasn’t prepared well enough for it.

He realized that death was something that one couldn’t prepare for.

The underground dimension was deadly silent. The lights of the Nightly Pearls, like snow, fell on his body.

He felt a bit cold and suddenly, he felt very tired. He knew whatever he was going to do was simply a waste of time, so he stopped trying to stand up, and even stopped thinking what would happen next. He raised his head, looked at the terrifying mountain-like dragon’s head with a calm and relieved composure.

“It seems that my master is right, I am truly unfortunate.”

He did not know if this black dragon could understand the human language or not but he thought, such a noble creature, even if it could understand, it would feel shameful to listen. Because of this, Chen Chang Sheng spoke the words that he never told anyone before to the black dragon.

“I have an incurable disease.”

“I can’t live past twenty.”

“Master is the best doctor in the continent and my medical skill is not bad but, we both can’t cure it.”

“This disease is more fatal than any fatal disease. It’s not a disease, but fate.”

“I am unfortunate.”

“After arriving at the capital, I spent a lot of effort. I finally got into the Tradition Academy, acquired the right to participate in the Great Trial and although I am still very far away from Ling Yan Pavilion, after taking the first step towards it and encountering Luo Luo, I thought my fortune was gradually getting better.”

“Surprisingly, I encounter you tonight.”

“My fortune is actually still so bad.”

Chen Chang Sheng’s face was a little pale not because of fear but because of the frost and snow.

Now that he was fearless, he could face a legendary brutal black dragon.

He no longer cared if this black dragon could understand him or not, or if it wanted to hear his words or not.

He knew that he would die soon, so if he didn’t speak these words now, he won’t have any chance to say them.

“Everyone says that life is fated and that no matter how terrible it is, it’s unchangeable. However, I don’t want to give up.”

A power came from nowhere and supported him to stand up. He raised his head and looked at the beautiful Nightly Pearls on the roof. He narrowed his eyes a bit, like a pitiful joey looking at the first sunshine in the morning, he was happy and hopeful.

“I want to stay alive. I want to live past twenty, then one hundred, even five hundred, eight hundred. I want to live longer and longer. The best would be if I could live forever and never die….but first, I must live past twenty, so I live very carefully.”

“Everyday I sleep early and wake up early. Everyday I exercise. I was never picky and never overate. It’s not my personality, so I only can have a healthy diet. According to the medical books, I use a little balance to measure meats and veggies to eat and even so, I never felt tired of it. Until after twelve, I turned all of these into instincts.”

“I care about time. I use all my time to study xiuxing, I want to interact with all of these fantastic knowledges before twenty and even more, I want to change my fate through xiuxing. This way, I can have the opportunity to see more beautiful landscapes after twenty.”

He looked at black dragon said, “Yes, all I did, all of the rules I set for myself are for staying alive. The most important thing in life is to stay alive. For this, I am willing to pay any price. I am trying my best to stay alive.”

The black dragon’s look at the youngster was still cold and brutal — probably because it didn’t understand the human language or more likely because it didn’t care. It was like an ant sadly waving its foreleg towards a tree branch and the child observing it only finding it interesting or funny.

Chen Chang Sheng already didn’t care about the black dragon’s reaction. He only wanted to get it off his chest in the last moments of his life.

“Changing fate is really too hard. The years I lived were truly too tiring, but no matter how tired I was, I still want to live because the pork dipped with oil and salt in Xi Ning was truly tasty, because there are really so many interesting knowledge shared in books and because life is really beautiful.”

“I don’t want to die, but I can’t promise I will live to twenty, more accurately, I don’t have any confidence at all. I don’t want the little girl delivered by my bamboo dragonfly to become a widow so I came to the capital to cancel the engagement, but then?”

“Everyone who knows me thinks I am too precocious. Unlike a fourteen year old youngster, all say I am mature but they never think….I am only five years away from death, I am still young, but I am already half buried in soil. How can’t I be mature!?”

These past years, Chen Chang Sheng was highly concerned on controlling his emotion, because being emotional isn’t good for his health, but now everything was not necessary so he was no longer calm. He looked at the black dragon or this world and shouted angrily.

“I don’t want to die.”

“But I am about to die now.”

“I feel so sad.”

Chen Chang Sheng felt very sad and his eye sockets were a little red. He thought he would cry, but he discovered that ever since he controlled emotion and was unwilling to die, he forgot how to cry. With this, he felt even more sad. Then he unimaginably calmed down.

“I appreciate that you didn’t eat me right away. Although this may not be your true intent, you let me finish these words, so I want to thank you. I really want to live, so even though it’s very funny, but please allow me to fight you at last.”

After speaking the last sentence, he raised the little sword in his hand and faced the black dragon.

He thought silently in his mind: death, come!

Let’s fight.

Like the past years.

The black dragon slowly came to him and a cold hurricane echoed in the vast underground dimension. Its body was way too huge, so a slight move would cause the world to change.

Unimaginable coldness came to Chen Chang Sheng’s body.

His eyelashes were frosted again, and he felt like the blood in his body was about to be frozen.

Death was before his eyes.

Yet he felt a calmness that he never had before, even relief.

After ten, the shadow of death and terrifying pressure that always followed him disappeared.

He felt light and comfortable. Being without pressure was such a nice feeling.

He finally understood how to defeat the fear carried by death. The solution was only death itself.

He laughed as the frost on his eyelashes spreaded out like a white flower.

Master, do you see that?

I am about to change my fate.

You said I will die at twenty.

Now, even though I am not fifteen yet, I am about to die.

Fate is actually not undefeatable.

 

 

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62 thoughts on “Chapter 59: A Monologue of a Youngster in front of a Black Dragon

    Lecompte said:
    August 6, 2015 at 3:54 pm

    … No shame! Can’t just tease me with a link and have nothing here!

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      binggodude responded:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:12 pm

      wut? it was made so that it would be faster when it is finished editing =O

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        ahxiian said:
        August 6, 2015 at 4:30 pm

        The sorrow.. so painful.. sobs. T^T
        Thanks for th chapter!

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      binggodude responded:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:13 pm

      Trust the post. If i got the post up then that means that the page is read too lol

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      Lecompte said:
      August 6, 2015 at 5:49 pm

      Thank you for the chapter! =D

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    Ars Roccii said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:21 pm

    Thanks for the chapter =)

    But the cliff…

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    Chronos5884 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:22 pm

    Thank you donator J.H. and translators

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    ratatoskr2 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:22 pm

    Aah, so thats why. 5 years left between him and death, how could he not force himself to mature. Somehow it reminds me of invictus. Take hold of your own fate. Chang shen is undoubtedly one the best MC i’ve know, personality wise.

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      synthous said:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:55 pm

      The only way to exit is to walk through the door to death. Since he’s already half a foot in, doesn’t that mean he’s passed the conditions? Unless he’s too small to ride the dragon. Amusement parks hate midgets.

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    pristineallyn said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:27 pm

    Waaaaah! I’ve been idle for a while but I still love this. Bing, when are you updating next?

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      binggodude responded:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:40 pm

      well chapter 60 is tranlsated just needa edit it and it will be up

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        pristineallyn said:
        August 6, 2015 at 4:47 pm

        Ahw! So cool! You’re so cool! Thank you… this is a really emotional chap! T_T I understand his feelings so much that I wanna cry!

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        binggodude responded:
        August 6, 2015 at 4:55 pm

        i ma go take a nap first though lol…

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        pristineallyn said:
        August 6, 2015 at 4:59 pm

        Great! HAHAHA I won’t be late in reading it coz you are also going to sleep. Yey!

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        mugiwara19kc said:
        August 6, 2015 at 5:00 pm

        will it be out in like, 24hrs? please hurry. i and every body else really want to find out what happens next. thank you sponsors for sponsoring the chapter and binggodude for translating the chapter. waiting for the next one.

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        pristineallyn said:
        August 6, 2015 at 5:02 pm

        Bing’s gonna take a nap ^^

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        mugiwara19kc said:
        August 6, 2015 at 6:02 pm

        yeah not like he is gonna sleep for next 24hrs straight

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    khrowy said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:27 pm

    Thank you for you JH for the sponsor! Thanks for the chapter!

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      khrowy said:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:37 pm

      Note to self proofread post next time

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    12kucingputih said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:28 pm

    wow our MC try to change his fate but in the end ….. find it in next chapter lol

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    andarinyo said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:29 pm

    Thanks for the chapter…

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    blackhawkrider said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:29 pm

    the end…..lol

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    asdaweqwqas said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:29 pm

    Crazy chapter! Thanks!

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    morph said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:29 pm

    what a cliffhanger

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    anononononon said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:30 pm

    so short~

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    kessanrpg said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:31 pm

    The Cliff is Strong in this One.

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    ryve16 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:33 pm

    I cried…but they were manly tears!

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      Stunned_Stunner said:
      August 6, 2015 at 4:44 pm

      LOL mine too…Someone saw me and said damn dude those are the legendary manly tears

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    djp6 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:42 pm

    this is simply the best cliff hanger i have ever read, thanks

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      James Yang said:
      September 10, 2015 at 6:12 am

      ikr…I wasn’t even mad that this was a cliff hanger….just happy that the MC was able to convey his feelings and walk forward in life

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    LALALALA said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:43 pm

    Ah… so refreshing…. he finally died… and reborn again in another world. =) nice plot isn’t it?

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    ゆうきゃ( ´ (@tzxk4310) said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:47 pm

    Oh my … the feeling are real, CCS is clearly one of the best MC ever created.

    Thanks a lot J.H. for this donation, you gave us another step toward epicness !

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    Nirheim said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:48 pm

    This is the most emotional chapter I seen in this novel so far…..Thank you for the chapter translators, editors, and sponsors.

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    thejum said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:56 pm

    I teared up. I’ll admit it.

    Thank you for the chapter! And thank you to the sponsor!

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    heon666 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 4:58 pm

    First time commenting…. thanks to the translators…. i’m crying….

    This is simply… impossible to describe with words…. or at the very least i’m unable to describe it…

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    gorylocks said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:07 pm

    Thanks for your hard work!!
    🙂
    I really like Chen Chang Shen!!

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    kirindas said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:11 pm

    Thanks for the new chapter!

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    Axia said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:13 pm

    Thank you. Cant wait for the next chapter:)

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    emmdouge said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:24 pm

    Best MC ever.

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    Vinicius França said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:27 pm

    thaaaanks donator
    thaaaaanks translator

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    gone said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:29 pm

    I just love this dude!

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    Rise of the Divine (RoD) said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:35 pm

    ………….wow, sooo much for becoming stronger ooh well, me personally don’t hate this type of MC. i mean lot of the novel go for the OP MC and i hate how the damage the first 3 Chapters,like first ch is the intro and Mc detail of past life or present issues, second ch is about how he or she hate themselves and everyone and last chis how they encounter some skill or drug (Etc). but this novel is one of the best like CD, steller trans* (etc), like how the explain with detail the story with the MC, and i don’t hate the slow rising of power, but hate how almost everyone look the MC like trash and destroy his every opportunity to growth.

    ps:……thx for the chapters.

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    Helethir said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:42 pm

    This novel is a masterpiece

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    amagi91 said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:49 pm

    thanks a lot for the chapter to all involved

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    Hoeru said:
    August 6, 2015 at 5:54 pm

    A trully emotional chapter. Up there with CD’s Doering’s death, King Shura’s Jo Gi Chun’ death/dragon’s story/conclusion, and Desolate Era’s Yuchi Snow’s death. Thanks author, and thanks bing team for this awesome translation. xD

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    Matakali said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:08 pm

    Wow..good chapter..Thanks for the chapter.

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    Seink said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:31 pm

    RIP!
    It was a nice story, next chapter we will have his funeral and the new protagonist will be Lou Lou. 😉

    Thanks for the translation!

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    fireballun said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:40 pm

    Thanks for chapter dear DONOR, translators and editors! Also, many thanks to the author for Cliffhanger~

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    Akmarizam Mohmed said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:54 pm

    he still have suspicion that LX is deeply in love with him LOL

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    Akmarizam Mohmed said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:55 pm

    lol I was commenting on a different LN ~.~

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    everynovelfanatic said:
    August 6, 2015 at 6:56 pm

    This chapter made me crate an account by force oh poor MC

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    twintwin said:
    August 6, 2015 at 7:21 pm

    İt is getting quite exciting😮 I think MC is golden dragon. İts name was mentioned at the beginnig, and there is this wall insident supposedly only a dragon could easily pass at the time he was searching for his star. And now they say he encountered a similar being even befor he opened his eyes😀😀😀

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    plusikplus said:
    August 6, 2015 at 7:49 pm

    there are some mistakes here and there, but your quality is amazing. i have read all the chapters, and i must say.. its fucking awesome. i love this new kind of MC 🙂 all the other mcs are OP and kill everyone who touches their pets. this is great 🙂 i hope you will continue translating this novel and i wish you luck!

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    Afraz Ahmed said:
    August 6, 2015 at 9:04 pm

    holy fuck man!! oh gawd the feels 😦

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    ambi said:
    August 6, 2015 at 11:30 pm

    Thanks for the chapter Binggo & Corp.!

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    Tasear said:
    August 8, 2015 at 11:54 pm

    This series always makes me cry! Seriously,thanks for bringing to life this series into English.

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    Dauntes said:
    August 21, 2015 at 11:24 pm

    This…was an amazing chapter. Makes me happy that I actually persevered through all the chapters he spent getting pushed around. As much as I generally dislike series where the MC has very little power, this series is actually pretty amazing.

    Thanks so much for the chapter, and series.

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    Aquila said:
    August 26, 2015 at 1:51 pm

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    PrimalShadow said:
    September 7, 2016 at 6:34 am

    I feel no sympathy for the MC’s current conundrum whatsoever. He walked into this situation knowing that the door should be guarded and feeling the aura outside – and then when he runs into the guard, he complains about being “truly unfortunate.”

    Seriously, MC should by all rights be dead at this point; only reason he is getting out of this alive is Plot Armor. And he know what he was walking into! And worse of all, he doesn’t even have a good reason! Is it *really* worth risking near certain death for the sake of petty revenge?

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      -Tyrael- said:
      January 15, 2017 at 1:40 am

      Totally agree. He keeps talking about how hard he’s trying to live, and yet he’s in this situation only because of his pride and stuborness. What a hypocrite. Plot armor indeed.

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    Normal_Guy said:
    January 29, 2017 at 5:48 pm

    dang..that was heavy impact!!!

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